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 Gosh okay, here I am! Time has really gotten away from me but every time I sat down to type up a post, the timing was just never right or there was too much going on. But I'm finally feeling up to writing a bit and hopefully I can get back on track. 

The last few months have really not been kind...  I was hopeful this year would allow me to start rebuilding emotionally a little bit since the chaos early this year, let alone after the last few years, but that just wasn't in the cards yet it seems. ;; There has been a lot of loss and hardship that has happened recently, plus my health has been a terrible struggle since my surgery due to complications they didn't expect. Despite working with many specialists I now have to get additional procedures which has been so disheartening. Between everything, it all became just too much. I still haven't even fully processed the losses in my family that happened during 2020, so this on top of everything has left me in a really challenging place emotionally and I don't have the bandwidth for much of anything anymore. All I could really do was try to pick up the pieces of my heart, rest my mind as much as possible, and focus on spending time with my loved ones, who have been so wonderful and offer so much kindness, positivity, patience, and support through this with me.

(I'm sorry to write about this, these topics have been such a big part of my life for a while now, so I wanted to reflect a little bit on that. )

I have mostly been reading a lot and working on personal projects when having the energy, mostly writing, art, and dabbling a bit in embroidery or crafts. (Perhaps I will share some one day, I am really self-conscious about the things I make ahh. ) I've also started up of my older some hobbies and games again that I used to love a lot, many with friends who were surprisingly interested in joining me which has been so much fun. We even started a media club which has been such great motivation to read and watch a lot of things I have been meaning to, which has been wonderful. (Right now we are reading Maison Ikkoku!) My next creative goal is to learn how to crochet and I still have a future goal of making some cute vlogs when I'm able, though it feels like a bit of a pipe dream at this point. While I never really left, I've also been having some fun using my tumblr account more (and changing the look) which has been fun to go back to. There are just so many wonderful pictures and references that are so nostalgic now.

In terms of fashion related news, I've only had a few little gatherings with friends where I wore pretty casual coordinates that weren't really noteworthy enough for photos, but I loved wearing them all the same. Since the sudden changes I've had health-wise, I needed to alter how I approach wearing my wardrobe which has been a new learning curve, but I found a lot of things that work well. In spring, I did a mini closet reorganizing where instead of having all of my wardrobe dresses in one specific order (by color), I put everything into it into three categories based on clothing type (and organized by color): pieces that look best with a decent amount of styling that are busier cuts/prints; pieces that are still a bit flashy but can be worn more simplistically; and pieces that can be worn super casual with minimal styling that I can literally throw on when not feeling the best but still want to wear my wardrobe. This way of organizing my wardrobe has been working out so well! I am considering making a post dedicated to this and some things I've learned in case anyone else finds them helpful~ 

That is all for now, I am not sure when I will update next, but until then~